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09:59 am
8/25/09

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today my summer grades got posted!
it now says on my program evaluation that I have 14 credits left.
those 14 credits are the classes I'm taking this fall.
ahh...it feels soooo good to have this almost be done with.
I know I haven't been the best student and it took me quite some time to get through a two year school because I kept getting distracted and side tracked and came up with other plans for myself.
but now that it is almost over with, I'm glad I always ended up going back and that I'm getting this degree...even if it isn't in something specific.
I've got ideas for what is next. Places to go. Majors to declare.
I'm sticking to my plan of not worrying about the future too far in advance and taking risks.
which I did yesterday. I have yet to see how that is going to play out...but I am proud to say after I did it, I did not obsess.
and I've decided to give the guy that I thought it might be weird to date a chance.
I've managed to make it almost 24 years with no regrets and now that I have a couple I do not wish to add to the list.
I worked yesterday instead of today, which was nice because no one else was really in the office.
however Monty was sick and I decided to leave him out of his crate so if he pooped or threw up he wouldn't be covered in it when I got home.
so I put towels down by the door and put his blankets on the floor.
thank god I did that because when I got home there was vomit on the kitchen floor (which is tile...so no biggie) and poop on his blankets in the living room.
most of the poo made it onto the blankets but there was some on the carpet. fun.
I cleaned it up and he continued to shit water and throw up the rest of the day and into the night.
poor guy. the last time he got sick his vet said I could give him mylanta, so I gave him a teaspoon of it and it looks as if it worked.
yay! sick doggies are so sad.
I had plans for the day, but I don't want to leave him alone. guess they'll have to wait.
time to eat some guacamole and watch weekend at bernies.

Tags: graduating, guacamole, monty, risks, sinclair, weekend at bernies

Current Location:	san rae
Current Mood:	bored

09:49 pm
8/18/09

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oh what's a girl to do?
this is a reoccurring theme for me.

Current Location:	home
Current Mood:	sleepy
Current Music:	gilmore girls.

08:35 am
7/13/09

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oh what's a girl to do?

Current Mood:	tired
Current Music:	camera obscura-french navy

04:09 pm
7/7/09

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i was crafty yesterday and i loved it.
it felt good to be making something.
plus its for people i love so that makes it that much more special.
i never have anything to do at work so i spend four hours on decor8blog.com and etsy.com and many other websites gathering ideas and inspirations for things i have no money for.
however i did come up with a few more cheap cute ideas that will allow me to continue spending my days being crafty instead of bored.
though i haven't been bored or felt too much alone for the past few weeks.
my friends have been amazing and have helped to keep me busy and make my heart light once again.
i was thinking about it this morning as i was getting ready for class...how these past few weeks spending them drinking tea and coffee, going on bike rides, spilling my guts to the best friends i could ask for, making pie, watching tv, having girl/guy talk, going shopping, texting, making trips to the bark park, sending silly e-mails and taking walks to starbucks has made this summer really feel like summer and the last thing i wanted to do was spend my morning in a smelly classroom.
blah. school. my environmental ethics class is over on the 22nd. it has gone well.
my math class is over on aug. 4th. it is not going so well. i am no good at math and the first test showed that.
but now that i've seen what his tests are like i will be more prepared.
my political science class starts on the 22nd and it shouldn't be too bad.
i enjoy online classes much more than going to campus.
aug. 4th should be tomorrow instead of 28 days away.
almost time to go home.
yippee!!

Tags: crafts, friends, school, summer

Current Location:	travelplex
Current Mood:	good

03:19 pm
6/29/09

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it is lovely out today.
makes me smile.
so i'd say i'm 75% back to my old self.
perhaps in a few more weeks i'll be back to normal.
i hope so.
today i added a bunch of upcoming events to my ical and it got me really exciting for the rest of the summer.
there are so many exciting days coming up that i want to fully enjoy.
time to take monty on a walk.
i can't let him sleep the day away.

Current Location:	home
Current Music:	all time quarterback-rules broken


08:17 am 6/25/09 Leave a comment	sandylicious (no subject) my goal-wake up happy. i need a good day start to finish.

08:25 am
6/18/09

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i know whats going on.
but i can't get out of it.
nothing is working long term.
i'm a little worried.

Current Location:	home
Current Mood:	worried
Current Music:	npr

03:19 pm
6/16/09

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work is boring.
so its time for an update.
yesterday started out terrible.
took me hours to get out of bed.
slowly it got better.
had chipotle with my mom.
worked up the nerve to get my hair cut but the place was closed. boo.
exchanged my dress for the wedding since i have no boobs anymore.
i want them back.
had a good cry/talk with stephanie.
poor stephanie...i cry almost everytime we hang out.
ravi brought m&m's. yuuum.
watched some tv with monty.
then went on a late night bike ride to downtown with ravi and kyle.
we had good talks. good laughs. good ride.
going up far hills on the way home was tough.
i thought i wouldn't be able to walk today but so far so good.
after the ride we had more good talks and more good laughs.
i got home at 3 but felt like i could've stayed up all night.
tomorrow is the first day of summer classes.
i thought maybe i'd be able to get out of my math class...but no such luck.
i did get my grades for spring quarter today and i passed the math class i just took.
thank god. i was not retaking it again.
i am pretty excited that i don't have to buy any books for two of my classes.
saves me a ton of money.
money that i can now spend at the victoria secret semi-annual sale on new bras.
or save for the boob job i want but will never get.
today hasn't been a good day feeling wise...the knots in my stomach are horrible.
i think its just going to build and build until friday is over with.
this broken heart stuff needs to be over.
time to take my mind off of it by searching on etsy for cute stuff and craigslist for a bike.

Tags: bike rides, boobs, etsy, friends, school

Current Location:	travelplex
Current Mood:	stressed

08:09 am
6/13/09

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i have got to get out of this funk.
it is taking so much out of me.
i feel so blah everyday.
everything makes me cry.
i cried watching shark week dvds with ravi and stephanie last night.
even pie didn't cheer me up that much.
its just really hard. and i'm trying. i don't know what else to do.
i think some of my classes at sinclair got waived...so hopefully i will be able to pull of being done by the end of fall.
even though its a bullshit degree, its still a degree.
i just need to figure something else out.
something that can get me a job.
so i am not a fan of this digital tv thing.
once i hooked up the converter box, i lost like three channels i had before.
ones i watched.
now i have five different channel 16's (pbs)
unless they are all showing austin city limits, how many do you need?
my parents are coming down today to help me hang some shelves...three months after i moved in.
only five left till my lease is up.
kind of a relief. i hate leases.
even though i don't know what i'll do once it is up.
guess i don't have to figure that out now. i've got five months.
i think my next door neighbor is stalking me.
every time i take monty outside or on a walk, he will come out and sit in his car.
usually if monty and i take a walk the guy will drive around the neighborhood.
he'll drive behind us slowly for like the first block and then leave. but i usually see him like one or two other times while we're on the walk.
yesterday he was in his car when monty and i left, then he followed us around the first block.
when we were almost back home i saw him driving towards us. he turned at the stop sign...which is the street he lives on.
but he didn't go home. he drove around the block and then came up behind us.
he went up to the next street...driving past his street and turned and by then we had turned onto our street.
we were in front of his building when he drove up behind us again and parked.
he got out and said hi.
creeps me out.
i need to go back to bed.

Tags: blue, creepy neighbor, monty

Current Location:	home
Current Mood:	blah

10:13 pm
6/10/09

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i've been so blue lately.
however yesterday i found this print on etsy that says "when was the last time you thanked your heart for beating?"
of course because i'm an emotional wreck it made me cry.
i really want to order it but need to wait till i get paid next week.
it also got me thinking about all the little things that make me happy that i have forgotten about in the past month because i can't stop thinking about what has made my heart so sad.
bah. i'm crying now. i suck.
so here is a list of things that make me happy:
.monty's messed up teeth that make his lip get stuck on one side
.free vanilla syrup in your iced coffee at starbucks
.big cheez-its
.starfish shaped ice cubes
.my new zipper skinny jeans
.starbucks hang outs with stephanie
.picture messages from morgan
.fresh pineapple
.evening runs
.black tea
.lightly salted almonds
.the cool side of the pillow
.excursions on wyso-npr
.the photo book
.thai food
.when the sky is pink
.puppy breath
.making food with ravi and stephanie
.driveway talks with morgan
.banjos
.late night drives
.trader joes chickenless nuggets
.trader joes raspberry fruit spread
.cutting coupons at my parents house on sunday mornings
.london fog lattes
.bomb pops
.when kyle sings pearl jam
.when the floor of my car is clean
.la fietsa
.the ducks that live in the yard a couple houses down from ravi and stephanie
.the fact that we always seem to listen to the format when we're driving
.henry rollins spoken word
.shark week
.mod podge
.the plant that tim gave stephanie and i when we lived together
.extreme hold mousse
.heat lightning
.adjanta
.decor8blog.com
.domino magazine
.the dora canal
.kokeshi dolls
.chibi robo
.having silly play fights with eric
.the gay from hell picture of dave
.raspberry pie
.pie in general
.having two quarters left at sinclair
.when my mom tries to say abuelos
.paneras greek salad
.st. elmos fire
.hardees coffee
.mental floss
.fireflies
.law and order:svu marathons
.albino squirrels
.breakfast at tiffanys
.random hugs
.chipmunks
.making lists
.the aquarium
.painting my nails
.big boys ice
.play on words
.franks hot sauce
.paul simon
.pandas
.strangers as heroes
.the dublin pubs potato soup
.tasteful boob jobs...i want one
.etsy
.sing alongs
.wanderlust
.how my dad is so proud of his air force career
.making people smile
.getting mail
.the sound bean pot(cat) makes when i pick him up

making that list put a smile on my face.
time for bed.work tomorrow.hopefully i survive it. my job is NOT on the list of things i love.

Current Location:	home
Current Mood:	calm
Current Music:	owen-bed abuse

09:21 am
6/2/09

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"and i'm sorry you had to rip my heart out,
it'll happen to you just wait and see."

the one thing i find comfort in knowing.

Current Location:	home
Current Mood:	cranky
Current Music:	mates of state-like u crazy


10:12 pm 5/18/09 Leave a comment	sandylicious (no subject) why is this so hard?

10:19 pm
5/11/09

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 i'm having deja vu.
awesome.
kill me now.

Current Location:	bed
Current Mood:	drained
Current Music:	npr

04:59 pm
3/27/09

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i moved out last weekend.
finally.
the apartment is pretty nice.
it has its flaws but every place does.
and my landlord is pretty cute.
monty is not a fan of the place yet...but he has only been here a day.
it should get better.
i hope.
i hate hate hate moving.
this is my 9th move since i first moved out.
the only up side of moving...you find things you forget you had.
or things you wanted to find but couldn't.
for me it was a cd
sharks keep moving.
amazing. check them out.
school starts monday.
so not ready for it.
at least it will keep me busy.
i haven't been to the gym in a week and feel horrible.
i've been running outside but the wind/chill makes my ears ache.
i have no cable or anything so i've been watching the oc.
i am on season 3 already.
i need to get netflix.
still insanely confused about my boy situation.
one minute i hate him because he is being weird and i'm convinced i can't trust him.
then the next minute he is saying all the right things and making me smile...but still i'm pretty much convinced i can't trust him.
i'll just have to wait and see what happens between now and when he gets back and stop worrying about the after he gets back part.

Current Location:	home
Current Music:	the oc

09:30 am
3/18/09

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i wish it could stay this way.

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Current Mood:	happy
Current Music:	Hootie and the Blowfish-HOLD MY HAND!!!

07:09 pm
3/14/09

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eeep. i can not, can not write this art media paper.
for some reason this paper is beyond what i am capable of.
even though its not.
its simple really.
i have to bust it out tonight and tomorrow no matter what.
unless that is anyone happens to have a paper comparing and contrasting edgar degas and paul gauguins use of various medias just laying around.
i'm going to bribe my mom into go to goodwill with me.
maybe find some cute things for my new place.
as the days count down i get more excited.
my belongings spend more time in boxes than they do being out and used.
but now remembering some of the things i have, i'm excited to decorate and have my own space again.
time to quit being a 24 year old living like a 16 year old.